Lonely

4/12/21 "Lonely" The truth is Leaving my health and finances in ruin Towards THC and Alcohol, I've been abusive I got a problem, Houston Still driving a Ford Fusion Why are they so quick to tell Newton And Susan After all I'm only human Most my friends are animals, like Toothless It's no illusion I'm not stupid I've just been reclusive There's no reason to make up excuses After all, it's useless I've been listening to music And doin' for me what is therapeutic I could talk about it or just do it I could show it or shoot it I could accept such terms or refuse it I could care less or I could prove it I was foolish or I f****ng knew it On came the cataclysm Followed by a schism A world full of skepticism And criticism As the waters remain murky or glisten They say it's the truth But the only proof Is from what was written Therefore a lot could be hidden if they only show what they want you to see and hear Pulling strings like a puppeteer Sleight of hand, like a magician One thing certain, time keeps tickin' Intuition tellin' me somethin' is missin' Misery avenue, is where I've been livin' In addition To battling a drug addiction And alcoholism The plot continues to thicken Few if any listen Zero recognition Oh well, back to my mission Got to finish the expedition While I'm still in existence It'll take persistence And brilliance, not inconsistence There'll be resistance But I've got to cover a lot of distance Only so much time we are given Here one second, gone the next minute Since people are so nosey Often staying low-key Keeping to myself mostly The room always smoky Drinking so much whatever, such as Peroni Thought you did, but you must not know me Still I feel so lonely Looking for my one and only Looking around closely As time passes by quickly yet slowly The real thing not phony Or bologna Still I feel so lonely