Loneliness

LONELINESS….. DID YOU FOLLOW ME HERE… OR WERE YOU SO DEEP WITHIN ME THAT I COULD NEVER TRULY BE FREE OF YOU, NEVER KNOW LIFE WITHOUT YOU. I MOVED. A NEW START. YET, I FEEL YOU. EMPTINESS. A NEW LIFE, NEW THINGS TO FILL THE VOID. IT NEVER WORKS. YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE, HAUNTING ME….A SMALLER PLACE TO SURROUND MY THOUGHTS. A NEW PLAN TO RID MYSELF OF YOU AND THE VACANT FEELINGS THAT DWELL WITHIN ME. MY MIND SEEKS THAT PEACE THAT IS SO ELUSIVE, THE TRANQUILITY. IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT. LONESOME, LONELY. NO ONE KNOWS MY PAIN. YOU NEVER GO AWAY. WHEN DID YOU CONSUME ME. THE ACHING. THE SADNESS. LOOKING OUT WINDOWS…STARING. WONDERING…. WAS IT ALWAYS THIS WAY? WERE YOU ALWAYS HERE WITHIN ME. I PRETEND ALL IS WELL. I LIVE MY LIFE IN THIS NEVER ENDING VOID WITH YOU. I AM THE PRETENDER. NO ONE KNOWS. tjsilba/Collections of life 2022