Lone Birthday Boy Dancing

Yesterday for my birthday,
I started off
with a bottle of wine...
I took the train
into town...
I had half a bitter
at the Cafe de Piaf
in Waterloo...
I went to work
for a couple of hours or so;
I had a pint after work;
I went for an audition;
after the audition,
I had another pint
and a half;
I had another half,
before meeting my mates,
for my b'day celebrations;
we had a pint together;
we went into
the night club,
where we had champagne
(I had three glasses);
I had a further
glass of vino,
by which time,
I was so gone
that I drew an audience
of about thirty
by performing a solo
dancing spot
in the middle
of the disco floor...
We all piled off to the pub
after that,
where I had another drink
(I can't remember
what it was)...
I then made my way home,
took the bus from Surbiton,
but ended up
in the wilds of Surrey;
I took another bus home,
and watched some telly, 
and had something to eat
before crashing out...
I really, really enjoyed
the eve, but today,
I've been walking around
like a zomb;
I've had only one drink today,
an early morning
restorative effort;
I spent the day working,
then I went to a bookshop,
where, like a monk,
I go for a day's
drying out session...
Drying out is really awful;
you jump at every shadow;
you feel dizzy,
you notice everything;
very often,
I don't follow through.

(There's a twilight mood to "Lone Birthday Boy Dancing" - almost certainly drafted in diary form on 8 October 1992, or perhaps a year earlier - with the birthday boy performing his Dionysian solo dance in defiance of the wholesale ruin of mind, body and soul he's so obviously invoking.)
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Allison Avatar
January 14, 2015 at 3:51 PM
Addiction of any sort can have such an adverse effect on so many lives - our friend has this issue and it is destroying her marriage and their business. Excellent descriptive write - with such sad imagery :-( Hugs Jan 1 7 from me
Allison Avatar
January 15, 2015 at 9:31 AM
Until she admits she has a problem they are powerless to help her Carl - shes in an out of hospital - she went to a health farm to dry out.... then her hubby got the bar bill! Am so pleased you have overcome your addiction:-) Stay strong:-) Hugs Jan xx
Halling Avatar
January 15, 2015 at 8:31 AM
Hi Jan, thank you so much for such a sweet comment, and I'm so touched this piece affected you. You are so right, my addiction had a terrible effect on people that cared for me. I'm truly sorry about your friend; I feel for her, and hope she can overcome, as I did. But it was a close run thing for me. I wish the best for her.
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