Living With the Disease

HERE ALONE IN THE DARK, I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO, BUT I'VE COME SO FAR. GOTTA PUSH FURTHER, BUT DONT KNOW IF I COULD, BUT IF I DONT IM GONNA WISH I WOULD. MY HEAD IS RACING, BUT IM NOT SO SURE, IF THIS IS THE PATH THAT WILL LEAD ME TO MY CURE. I WANT TO BE RELEASED OH I CANNOT WAIT, WITH EVERY DAY DECEASED, I HOPE THIS IS NOT MY FATE. I SHALL NOT TELL A LIE, FOR I WILL BEGIN TO CRY, I AM BECOMING SOME WHAT SHY, FOR I KNOW I WILL DIE. BUT EVEN THOUGH I SEE THE SPECTRUM OF LIGHTS, THE COLORS WILL NOT ALWAYS SHINE SO BRIGHT. DO I STILL BELIEVE THIS LIFE IS TRULY DIVINE? THAT IS THE ANSWER I SO TRULY QUESTION ON THIS NIGHT.