Little Stronger Now

all my life i have tried to please everyone. 
I would do my chores with no fuss.
I knew what my consequences would be.

I  laid my brothers clothes out for him at night.
It made me feel good inside.
I know he is older then me, 
But we still needed a motherly figure you see.
I picked up the role, at about 6 years old.
 to this day my brother depends on me.

I would try to be the daughter my father always wanted, 
But some how it always got tangled in a web of misconception  
My father was a cold man, a Hippocratic, and loved his mind games.
I was a pawn on his chess board. 
I was there but not much was said to me.
If he felt like yelling it was always taking out on me.
He was raised where family meant everything,
if you could carry the last name.
I was not a boy, I could not full fill this wish of his. 
My brother on the other hand, was the perfect fit.

My mother was buried deep in a bottle all day.
She never knew if we were coming or going.
she loved to yell and throw things. 
A pathological lair she was.

So, when I am asked about my past.
I simply  smile and say, "I will not speak of that."
The pain of going back is far to great.

Life has changed over the past few months
I have become stronger then I once was. 
My parents have yet to win this battle they ignited.
I am speaking of the past like it was yesterday.
I am no longer ashamed to say that,
My parents walked away.

I am not sure who I would be today 
If my parents had stayed.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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May 21, 2011 at 7:40 PM
I don't know what to say Cory. I am so sorry. Every child is entitled to a loving and good parent. My parents were both as perfect as parents can be. My daddy had his oldfashioned ideas but he was very loving about it. My poem is meant to be funny. Thank you for reading and commenting. Lvoe, Joyce
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May 14, 2011 at 5:55 AM
A beautiful way to let the reader have a better insight into the soul of a true Poet...very enjoyed....always Michael
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May 11, 2011 at 12:09 PM
Dear Cory, this must have been a very tough way to grow up. It seems your parents never appreciated you or showed you love. And yet, I know you have much love in your heart today. Perhaps it's best they went away. Such a moving poem. Very sad and packing with emotion. Love, Carolyn
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May 11, 2011 at 9:05 AM
Beautiful write. Thankyou. sarah
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