Life's Struggles

My world is always
turned upside down,
even if I smile it still
looks like a frown.

I have an illness you
can't see with your eyes,
people don't understand
and can't hear my cries.

If they do most try 
very hard,to lend
a helping hand I just
can't let down my guard.

Life has always been
very hard for me,
it holds me back from
being who I want to be.

It seems as though 
the harder I try,
my mind takes me back
to wanting to die.

When I look into the
future,I am unable to see,
if it's worth sticking around
for or be set free.

I look to God to help
be my guide, but
I always go back
to wanting to hide.

Will I ever be able to
have joy in my life,
or will I always struggle
with the demons inside.





                                           COLLEEN MARIE BONO

                                                April 7,2013
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013


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Date: 8/16/2013 7:27:00 AM
congrats on your win xx
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Date: 8/15/2013 12:38:00 PM
Interesting description of the feelings that go with depression.Congrats on your winning work.Sara
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Date: 8/15/2013 4:40:00 AM
deep poem this, there but for the grace of gods we go congrats on a fine win Shadow x smiles
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Date: 8/15/2013 12:26:00 AM
congrats! great one.(:cJenish
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Date: 8/14/2013 5:33:00 PM
Hello Colleen, thank you for the smiles this morning..., ~CONGRATULATIONS~ . thank you for the awesome entry. When you have time enjoy the winners on my XOOL blog * Called "Just For You" http://www.poetrysoup.com/poetry_blogs/blog_detail.aspx?BlogID=15796&PoetID=18720 Take care --- xox Linda
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Date: 6/15/2013 8:54:00 AM
Good morning Colleen, thank you the hello this morning... stopping by the looks of this one again...hopefuly today you are smiling and the looking smiling frown is gone... as for them demons, this is a great way in expressing your struggles... xox~ PD
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Date: 5/1/2013 8:51:00 AM
Dear Colleen, "people don't understand and can't hear my cries." I find it remarkable how easily YOU pen YOUR words.Through YOUR POETRY people(POETS especially) do understand and do hear YOUR cries. If YOU read YOUR POEMS in depth YOU can see where YOU are asking and Praying for Support which YOU are getting from me, POETRYSOUP, and GOD.I just read YOUR comment to "I Recieved What I Prayed For" I believe YOU are seeing the fruits of YOUR Prayers. In God's time not OURS. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS and
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Date: 5/1/2013 8:53:00 AM
FOREVER YOUR Loyal Liege...HG
Date: 4/23/2013 1:05:00 PM
We all have demons inside... but we have beauty there, too... sometimes it's harder to find... But it's there... Concentrate on that... no matter how hard. A hard topic but beautifully and artfully written.
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Date: 4/18/2013 2:04:00 AM
This is a bit heartbreaking to read. I think we've all felt a little like this, sometime or another. It's important to know that you're not the only out there, and other people know what you're going through. Wishing you all the best, and hope you can get pass your hardships!
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Date: 4/11/2013 10:14:00 AM
- Sad when your life feels like you describe .... one day you will feel that the "sun" also shines for you. Wishing you all the best. - A sad but well written poem Colleen. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 4/9/2013 11:21:00 PM
Colleen, thank you for the uplifting comment on my poem the other day. The poem you share above kind of scares me. I'm hoping i don't have to struggle with all the demons inside. I wish and pray, for joy to settle in, after the tragedy my daughter and I endured painfully recently. I know about that smile you speak of, when your poem lured me in from start to end. a frown is more then meets the eye. Dear friend, somehow I feel like this everyday. I don't think I can hide that long. always~ PD
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Date: 4/8/2013 12:06:00 PM
this is a sad beautiful poem...hope you find peace and stop struggling so much...love,Deb
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