Life's Disappointments

Up and down, all around, my head spins at every sound. My emotions show in my face, all caused by life's big race. Happiness is limited, sorrow mostly exhibited. Not much joy in my life, all I feel is pain and strife. Everyday is dark and gray, I smoke it all away, much to my friends' dismay. I hurt myself till I bleed, my friends dread the awful deed. I used to feel like I was on top, now I just wish it'd all stop.