Life Struggle

Keeping thoughts silent no longer able to respond Darkness keeping my mind too close to the beyond Partner no longer a partner not someone to relax with Suspect the best decision for now is to be quiet forthwith Silently and alone no attempt to be open or find a shared space The partner is not there to create anything like love or grace Between us is only an attempt to protect weekly disgrace I am ending this no more attempts to talk or explain Instead moving through the days with little as possible pain Until I can move away when able -- from all the distain Did not expect this to happen hoped for more But age and cancer and an unhappy childhood Led this to become a feeling of something deplored Will take some time to find some sense of goodness and connection To find again warmth, life, friends and introspection