Life Numb

I haven't been myself lately Numbing myself of pain maybe I'm young and it's still  early But the world's not as young sadly It's cold and like a maze Warm and like the rain It comforts and it ruins Sometimes stays or slowly fates Like memories of a melody Delights but it ends You hold on you lose You snooze you lose There's no right doing or wrong But a journey to be strong It's an ongoing battle With a quest to settle And it gives no medals You just continue to paddle With the hopes to win Even when it gets dim