Letting Him Go

"Letting Him Go" There's a boy I know Who, everyday, crushes my soul. His silence is deafening, a reminder of my past mistakes. His ghost all around me, anchoring me to his memory. I loved this boy; I still do. Not as a wife loves her husband, but as a mother loves her son. He lives in my dreams, he exists in my tears. I wake with him on my mind; I lie awake, his words echoing in my ears. The hope that he will one day call will not die, no matter how hard I may try. I no longer need him, I've learned to survive alone. But I want him here so dearly that I'd do anything for just one more hug. I miss his voice; his laugh even more. But I'll keep my distance because he wishes it so. And isn't that what love is? Loving enough to let him go.