Leaving Him

I don't know where to start.... All I know is my life has been torn apart. The only one I love has broke my heart. I thought I found the one sent from above. So I made him mine, and gave him my love. I foolishly thought his love was real. Ugly and worthless is how he makes me feel. Loosing him scares me to death. Loving him makes me loose my breath. He acts like everything is okay. We argue and fight every day. Terrible thoughts he puts in my head. We are barely hanging by a thread. He has even said.... That I am better off dead. I bet he never thought, that he would get caught. Believe it or not, I connected each and every dot. I need to leave him be. I don't deserve the way he treats me. He never wants to try. He is so quick to say goodbye. A lot he has said has been a lie. He loves to make me cry. I still love him and can't explain why.