Kiss Stains of Shame
Your kiss-aids on wounds is but an epic fail
We had the perfect time of our lives
Till unhappiness and sadness arrives
Lost in the perplexity of our fantasies
I have fed the fires of your lust disease
Darkness consumes me again…
Go ahead and give me your pain…
This pen drains out the verses
Of life's endless gifts and curses
I lay in bed alone, no one to cuddle with
Figuring me out is but a vexing labyrinth
Ah, say no more…close that damn door…
You must adore…hurting me to the core…
You brought me creativity during these hard times
Well, here are dimes for your thoughts
I will embrace clarity's crimes…those clever crimes
Internalize my guilt as your soul rots
You killed me alive tonight, this weird night
Sorry, couldn’t put up with this insanity inside
You thrilled me with your might that burns bright
Free me, wouldn’t it be easier to freedom abide?
Guess you neglected the kind words I said to you earlier
You’ll never understand that your pain is a shattered mirror
I dread it’s the end of you and me forever…
Still, I sit still, wrapped in solitude's sweater
I gave it my all to trust you with all my heart
Have some mercy on my soul before I rip apart
Numb the pain I succumb to on a daily basis
Can’t completely fathom all this, can’t mask it with a kiss
Can’t mend me or stitch me closed
Your lies and true colors are exposed
Hiding and running away is what you do…how distressing…
So, quit your B.S.ing…who are you impressing?
Erase me in your cranium's memory
Can’t undo the hurt I put you through
You haunt me so true in my mind's misery
Won’t push the limits like you do
Like you always seem to do…
It’s like you don’t mind the insecurity and anxiety I feel
Try to corrupt my innocence, but you can’t, you senseless rat! You can’t..
These peace-abiding angels – with them, I made a deal
Never selling my soul to the devil, so hear me out with this summarized rant…
What you done to me has done enough damage
All is water and debris under the wretched bridge
Hate me all you want…can’t laugh at my downfalls anymore
Nor can you haunt and taunt what remains of me
You left your stupid dignity and victory during war…
I’m brave enough to push away the shame in perseverance
I hold flames of fearlessness in my palms of promised radiance
You are unforgotten and nestled nicely in my nostalgic noggin
Who wins? Who has gone missing? I ask myself as I regret this one sin
I have done a great amount of irksome evil-doing
My awful fate and its aftermath, forever brewing
Neon lights flush away the sorrow from my inner being, never really misleading
Chase away the insidious voices in my head, eternally bleeding…grief keeps breeding…
The horrendous dark side of me…
Can’t kiss away the nasty vanity!
Change me,
I dare you
Yeah, possibly,
I can’t undo…
This horrible thing I did
What’s wrong with me?
About…everything, kid…
Suppose you’re too blind to see..
Believe me…relieve me, watch me grow
But don’t grieve me, you despair-vain best-seller
Hell, I’m regretless for another tomorrow
Wishing you the same thing, you yesterday-dweller
Curious of what lies ahead
As dread piles on in my head
Your so-called truth is a sugar-coated, deceiving fairytale
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018
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