Kept Hidden In a Closet

I walk into my room every day seeing that closet. I wake up and I think in my mind "there's that sin." It's a eternal evil, it's clawing at the door, gnawing at my skin, growing and groaning more and more. It's big and ferocious, my past life it is. It's mean and scary and I can never win. My broken past met with my brain and made memories, I can't let go of this pain that is forever chasing me. I tried chaining it up, I try holding it down, but it's no use! My strength is no match for its conviction and blood-shot reproof. I can't take this anymore, this isn't fair! I'm not even that person anymore and yet there are scars I bare. Manipulating, hideous, tormenting, dangerous. This present evil is tied at my doorstep, tied at my post. I want to burn it at the stake, and leave the ashes to rot. I want to forsake it so bad, but I know it will forsake me not. This terrible folly can go on no longer, I've made no deals with the devil and this is too much. I need something, or someone to take this animal away so it will stop hurting me. I need an exerting of a pain- free peace, I need an excreting of this soul-eating disease, I want to be free! God*** Daughter, Daughter! I'm right here. I'm right by your side. I've never left you, all through your lows and even through your highs! You see that evil that gets at you, you see that pain that won't escape you, I can take that off your shoulders. Ill make it to where that burning flame of evil is nothing but a dying smolder. I can take that evil away but you must give me your past. I can take that pain away but this battle must be your last. Give me the reins and ill drive it away, Give me your darkness and ill give you another way. Gods cares about your pain, He cares about your struggles. He has no fear in anything and there's nothing too big for him to battle. He will take your sin down, pumbled to the ground. He'll make it look simple, like popping a small pimple on the face of your destiny, Because he's got everything, under control. So give him full custody to your past, and he'll give you a limitless future. -Elizabeth Cary