Just Me

Shadows on my soul often smudge the light I feel alone as again I face this fight Fear and aloneness trample my will Ever so strong, I am prisoner still Winning the prize no longer embraces The heart journeys on whatever the paces Feet grow weary and speak to give in Trudging on still…..as the world spins My battle though quiet is screaming inside If you knew my heart you wouldn’t abide Darkness envelopes, consumes and grieves Though I run away it never leaves I long for the ease to be happy in life Knowing only discord, sadness and strife Normal is threatening and untrue to me My wretched story is written I see To erase, to eradicate images of pain A wish I make for myself though in vain Others with smiles I mimic to blend My storm rages and will never end So many questions and panic surround Scared and surrendered, I curl on the ground Wishing for someone to reach for my hand I use my own, steady and stand Unseen power from inner hidden places Comfort and relief….I can’t see the faces Just when I think I’m finished and done I turn around and this battle’s won.