Just a long koan

My emotions I am honest now I am telling the truth Always Yes I need life Lives in the past My loved past Black and white My pure Monochrome Life Where? Smoked past Dried heart Mine From death and suffering of life Dead soul passing light crystal flying A heart Mine Calling Cross the life Gone From this Life My emotion is the life My stream is evil My life is Satan Lifesaver of my life I am Satan Emotions from past Just need Loved heart Save me Past Give New life I need Love My life is evil Dark star from far Longing Hungry life Like nature Words Cities Countries Woods Fields I need emotions From the Space From the Home From the Heart From the God I am Nothing