Judgment day (the last fanfare)
Sometimes I feel so
So damned alone in this
World... Nobody's there,
To stand by my side.
Nobody... Who says:
"you did well there!"
I am afraid of...
Losing myself - I just cannot
let that happen!
Sometimes I ask myself, I wonder:
Is it my fault?!
I don't know anymore... I don't understand it.
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT IT IS!!!!
AMS.
/ Why?
Why are you doing this?
You pull me into your Spell,
Love.... Is that it?
Where does it come from?
This feeling inside of me...
Is it coming from you?
Yes, I confess...
It's true, that I love you!
Please understand...
It really is so, that I love you.
For Pierre.
/ Sigh
Even if it's hard to imagine,
That I love you... And miss you...
But since I've seen you, it all was
Clear to me,... That I love you
But still will NEVER HAVE you.
I know, you are "too old" for
me.
But ever since I first saw you
I miss you!
/Ugly
Why am I so ugly?
Why do I look like such sh*t?
Why am I not a sweet little mousey?
I just sit here, and...
Dream of you.
/Longing
My thoughts are only fleeting...
Yet I know, I'm addicted
Addicted to you, yet
You are not with me anymore.
I know, my confusion can pass,
I'm just not allowed to see you again.
My nerves are on withdrawal:
My addiction is longing...
Longing for you!!!!
/Ugly
Why am I so ugly?
Why do I look like such sh*t?
Why am I not a cute little mousey?
Why can nobody stand me?
Why do all wish to avoid me?
Will you tell me... Why?
NO, You don't want to.
You just keep your mouth shut!
The last fanfare (Judgement day)
And still ...
And still, my love
My heart's on fire
Haven't learned my lesson.
Still full if fear and its sister, desire.
If you love Him, let him go
From desire, th source of fear,
I need to let go ...
I begged on my knees,
The Lord for a sign
- Not a song, never anymore,
songs only make me cry,
because you were my music, my
"why"
And the Lord had mercy
Gave me a sign
Not a map to find you
It's the burning up of the map
"Stop navigating. Vathr. Bathe, surf in the Bardo of the Albedo-
Light"
The alchemist himself spoke to me, Coelho, my sweet stray dog
"There is a hidden in-between space,
Out of sight.
It's here and now
Beyond love and desire
Like the river lazily ends in the
Sea, sometimes rushed
We are not islands in the stream
But Petals, floating
No way to steer
And content without attachment.
Whether we die or love
Love or give
Hate or receive or betray
Or hope
It all creates fear
Stop attaching
Only when thoughts are
gone
Am I here.
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