Joy after loss

Well it's taken a wretched amount... out of time 
I'm pretty sure I lost myself and I lost my mind 
It's like time to nothings was given
Nothing was needed but my living room and my cell phone 
I don't think I rose at the normal time
nor did I to sleep at  the normal time
nor did I eat at a normal time 
Nor exercised as I might have
nor did what I used to do in anyway
I lost all desire to do the work that I had loved 
My passion for it was gone 
My interest in anything but one was gone

Time stood still 

I sat in the same chair everyday 
I did the same thing everyday 
None of the pressures and the demands of life 
could get to me in anyway
 I just sat in the chair and I did what I did online 
  It sounds as if it I was falling 
down down down into the rabbit hole 
But really it was a spiritual experience
         that no one else will ever have 
Miracles happen
the inexplicable things that can never be told
 and never be explained 
It was not a time of loss 
It was a time of tremendous gain 
Some things can never be lost and some things never gained unless you walk in those shoes That can never be explained

It was time and time again in an Eden of love and loss 
I was Persephone 
Perhaps driven by Covid's hell down under
But in this story, Persephone rises all by herself back up to light 
and she  becomes a part of the tree of life
Fighting stretching longing for water reaching her roots deep down into the Earth that she came from 
into the dark. 
She brings truths to the lights and bursts forth in leaves 
of a 5,000 colored tree 
This is the new me 
Risen from darkness and illness into bright and multicolored light 
An electric light show 
I'm just not sure exactly 
which screen on which it should be shown 
Big slate ...small stage 
Do I work huge or do I work small 
Which pill to take ??

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