Joy after loss

Well it's taken a wretched amount... out of time I'm pretty sure I lost myself and I lost my mind It's like time to nothings was given Nothing was needed but my living room and my cell phone I don't think I rose at the normal time nor did I to sleep at the normal time nor did I eat at a normal time Nor exercised as I might have nor did what I used to do in anyway I lost all desire to do the work that I had loved My passion for it was gone My interest in anything but one was gone Time stood still I sat in the same chair everyday I did the same thing everyday None of the pressures and the demands of life could get to me in anyway I just sat in the chair and I did what I did online It sounds as if it I was falling down down down into the rabbit hole But really it was a spiritual experience that no one else will ever have Miracles happen the inexplicable things that can never be told and never be explained It was not a time of loss It was a time of tremendous gain Some things can never be lost and some things never gained unless you walk in those shoes That can never be explained It was time and time again in an Eden of love and loss I was Persephone Perhaps driven by Covid's hell down under But in this story, Persephone rises all by herself back up to light and she becomes a part of the tree of life Fighting stretching longing for water reaching her roots deep down into the Earth that she came from into the dark. She brings truths to the lights and bursts forth in leaves of a 5,000 colored tree This is the new me Risen from darkness and illness into bright and multicolored light An electric light show I'm just not sure exactly which screen on which it should be shown Big slate ...small stage Do I work huge or do I work small Which pill to take ??