Jealousy of My Pain

I say it this way because I'm just trying to be happy I don't wear a sad face because my life is crappy Haven't you heard it said to turn your pain into power Think about every rough seed turned into a flower When you look at me you think I have the best life You would never see the tears that I cried last night You look at me and wonder what keeps me smiling Thinking about the negative would keep you frowning I choose to make sweet lemonade out of my lemons A person smiling isn't revealing their true feelings I'm going through a whole lot it's just you can't tell Who actually goes around broadcasting how they fail It seems to irritate you that I'm always full of joy I'm dealing with my demons why are you so annoyed Do you rather see me down full of hurt and sadness That's what causes suicide holding in all that madness Seeing a better side of your situation keeps you sane Jealousy of my happiness is jealously of my pain