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It Would Go a Little Like This

If I wrote a suicide note,
It would go a little like this.
I would start it off addressed,
To all of those I would miss

I would say that I was sorry,
That it's none of their faults.
I'd just let them all know,
These thoughts wouldn't hault.

For so long I have lived,
At war inside my own mind.
And that I was tired of living,
In a world that was so unkind.

I would address my family,
And tell them to be mad.
I would want them to yell,
And I would let them be sad.

I know it wouldn't be fair,
To leave them as they are.
Recovering from another death,
May bend them too far.

But after my mother's death,
I just haven't been the same.
I want them to stay strong,
And to not place any blame.

I would tell my friends,
Please don't blame one another.
Go on and live your lives,
Like today was any other.

Please do not mourn, 
for I am now free,
Of every demon I ever let,
Root up and stay inside of me.

I was scared and I was weak.
I was running from my fears.
I should have known better,
But I couldn't see quite clear.

My mind was foggy,
And not entirely my own.
Without seeking any help,
This outcome I should've known.

Know that I'm in a better place.
I'm looking over each of you.
I wish you all the best of luck,
In everything you ever do.

The time has come to say goodbye.
I bid you all farewell.
I am now living in peace,
And not my own personal hell.

Copyright © Sienna Ethylpen | Year Posted 2014

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