It Hurts/Emotional Wounds

Before I started writing poems I was experiencing some heart brake the relationship wit my 1st love failed so I started going on blind dates I'm sorry to say but the scar my ex left on me is still eternally bleeding and it's only by the grace of God that I'm still emotional breathing this wound hurts I just wanna forget about her and lay back but I need true love from a woman so I'm searching for it like a needle in a hay stack I'm trying to get to the person I once was hoping wit the next woman I meet helps me to fall back in love It's a hurting feeling thinking ya family don't love you maybe because since birth your worldly father really didn't want you so I figure my life was based on being accepted and not to dwell on life's tragic emotional lessons it hurts being played whether by ya girl or one of ya friends I guess I thought my homies would stay true to the end but when it boils down to it they can't save me from sin and since my family ain't much my Christian brothers & sisters are my closes to kin I been emotionally wounded by this devilish world you can see it in how I sleep how I'm all wrapped up & curled when I look at what Christ suffered for me how can I complain so I'm looking foward to the sunshine But 1st I gotta deal wit this emotional rain