It Has Been So Long

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG IT HAS BEEN SO LONG NOW I HAVE TO SAY IT HAS BEEN SO LONG I CANT REMEMBER WELL IT HAS BEEN SO LONG I CANT FIX THINGS ON MY OWN NOW THERE ARE JUST SOME THINGS I CANT REMEMBER ABOUT YOU WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME WHEN I WAS SO YOUNG WHY DID EVERYBODY ALLOW SUCH A THING TO HAPPEN TO ME WHY WAS IT AND STILL IS SO HARD ON ME I CANT REMEMBER YOUR FACE NOR ANY OTHER PART OF YOU AND YOUR LIFE WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE THAT WAY THIS IS THE TIME WHEREBY I NEED YOU THE MOST THE TIME WHEREBY I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND EVENTUALLY LAUGH WITH WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME WHILE I WAS SO SMALL AND INNOCENT DID I REALY HAVE TO GROW UP WITHOUT YOU WAS IT NECESSARY TO LIVE WITHOUT A HELPING HAND YOU KNOW...THE HARD PART IS WHEN OTHERS EVENTUALLY GET A CHANCE TO TALK ABOUT THE POSITION YOU SHOULD BE TAKING UPON MY LIFE WHICH RIGHT NOW YOU ARE NOT DID YOU REALY HAVE TO LEAVE THAT FAST WITHOUT ME DID YOU REALY WANT TO LEAVE WITHOUT ME WAS IS SO HARD TO TELL ME GOODBYE BEFORE YOU GO CAUSE WHAT I WOULD HAVE WANTED WAS A CHANCE TO SAY GOODBYE WHICH EVENTUALLY I COULD NOT OR WAS IT NOT ALLOWED AM I NOT ALLOWED TO TELL THE ONES I CARE ABOUT MY GOODBYES BECAUSE I EVENTUALLY THOUGHT SO WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO SWALLOW WHY IS IT PAINFUL EACH DAY IT HAS BEEN SO LONG THAT I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HAS BEEN LONG ACTUALLY SO LONG....