It beats

1. It's been years, months, weeks have gone by. I've grown so much I can barely recognize my reflection. No lie. Each day more, I've seen you star in less of my dreams and it made me glad. I wrote a poem or two about the feeling of finally letting go of the best of me—you. My bad. 2. Mom drew the curtains today, I need some vitamin D. She shut them back when she walked out, watching you ski. My heart, it beats, When you're far and stops when you're near. 3. I thought I would have forgotten about your laugh, silly and cute. Your eyes were ordinary but canvas worthy. Bullets of memories it shoots. Your hands were soft as daisies, pretty as lilies. You'd stare at me as if I were a movie. Oh my. Waves through my hair and entangle with mine under the moonlit sky. 4. I tried hard not to sound cheesy when I say you are my loophole, a bad habit, A complete *****, Force of nature, like the earth round its orbit, Three hundred sixty-five days a year. 5. On a cloudy fall sky, I sat down in our favorite trees, penning down my thoughts. Ink dries ahead of every word. Would you think I were cool if you saw me now? Like a green leaf in a rainforest, a canvas stuck in a gallery, did I run out of slots? Or am I like the river we bathe in when we were young, long gone and replaced. Do I still have a shot? 6. With you? All through? 7. If not, let me go. I've got other dramas to star in. I won't be a second lead to none. Can I Go away, leave me alone in the cold dark forest, barefooted while she warms your sheets. Hold me, let go, shunned. 8. Is she your forever? Your seahorse? Dancing to your favorite tune? When I only need the source? 9. Your heart, It beats, Thump, thump, thump. It's all for me, she feels. 10. About the poems I lied Over a hundred, for each I cried Thump thump thump It beats For you