Is It a Dream?

In my minds eyes My enemies are my friends and my "Friends" that helped me in the beginning might soon be the cause of my ends. In my minds eyes I try to be the sunlight during my loved ones rain Thinking I'm the joy But in reality I'm the pain In my minds eye Am I the reason you failed life's test cuz I didnt teach you Or help guide you enough like the rest? In my minds eyes Did I only dirty your soul more and make it rough When I thought I was cleaning you by showering you with my love? In my minds eye I'm rich in live but poor in spirit Let me mess up just once Just like "CNN" every hour on the hour I'm guaranteed to hear it If this is a dream I'm ready to wake up Somebody please ring the alarm.