Invisible Pain

Sometimes I cry in the silence of night from the pain deep inside which somehow I hide Every day I pretend that I am just fine I laugh and I smile I bottle the fire I want to explode with so much emotion instead I put on an act while it implodes inside There's too much to say no way to explain the feelings I have they won't go away Nobody knows what's eating at me I feel if I tell no one will understand This can't go on much longer I have to release the pain turns to anger I need to scream My brain just won't stop I have the urge to run away I want to forget my past desperation fills my heart All my thoughts are contradicting letting go means forgetting forgetting means being vulnerable being vulnerable means more pain I don't want anyone to know I'm so torn inside I could so easily be broken so I must not let anyone in I always cry in the silence of night from the pain deep inside which I no longer can hide