Invisible Ailment

I despise you every day Pills needed to make pain go away Tried so many to help me through A pain free day, impossible that's true. Patches,nerve blocks,try Botox Acupressure, acupuncture, re-adjust Ice and heat, new pills this week Go down on one, go up, don't peak. Withdrawals from one, effects from another Lost another week, I want my mother, Comfort, understanding someone to care Lost so many, no comfort there. Dependance is not addiction Explaining those differences causes friction Making others understand I need support, just lend a hand. Living each day in chronic pain Is no life, at times insane. I wish one pill will end this drama That all began from surgical trauma. Lowered, changed, done what I should Educated myself learned everything I could To find what helps relieve my pain Because I want to live again Living a life in chronic pain Hell on earth minus flame Having a problem invisible to see Causes judgement, scorn, jealousy People think it a sham Never try to understand Can't understand when not in sight Explaining illness is my plight. What I would give to live pain free No need of medicines to carry me Miracles happen I'm told its true If selfish oh well, My life, not you.