Internal Black Hole
Why do I feel this way?
Feels like I'm being swallowed up by darkness..
Like I'm being shaken until I cry, and yet here I am frozen in time.
I'm being internally beaten up..
My heart wanting to burst apart.
Why do I feel so down all the time?
Do I need help..? Is school the cause of this pain..?
This emptiness inside me.
It is once said in a song..
"Silence makes me think about what I've done.. There's no way to mask what is real. No sound to hide behind."
If you're ever wondering why I have headphones in... Is because I then don't have to think about the things that I've done... I can hide behind my music, put up that barricade, as if to block out any other living thing.
How am I suppose to love myself if all I feel inside is nothingness... Just a big black whole, sucking every bit of happiness out of me and making me feel sick to my stomach, makes me feel betrayed, not trustworthy...
What the HELL IS THIS?!
Copyright © Emaka Abbott | Year Posted 2016
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