Inside of Me
Agony reaps at my soul
everytime I watch you walk away
My whole world crumbles cause you cant stay
My eyes will not close at nights when you are not here
The tears fall neverending when no ones here
and when in the presence of others im hard as stone
smiling perfectly for all the world to see
They think im doing just fine
enjoying my time alone
but im not fine
im not happy
Forlorn I am
crying on the bedroom floor,
with no will to get up
Screaming in my head,
with thoughts of sorrow ,regret and dread
im barley breathing
im pretty much dead
my soul is burning and turning to ash
the memories haunt me of our perfect past
I guess happiness isin't meant to last
blown up in a gust
everything I love just blows away from me
I jump and try to grasp it
but all I catch is cold air
How can pain this great be real
when its the only thing left that I feel
but still I wave my magic wand
and somehow I smile so noone can see
What really goes on inside of me
Copyright © Jessica Bowie | Year Posted 2010
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