Incertitude

New stage begins Where I have to beseech everything included, not just Money, food, job, compliance But even sex! What is this phase? Which is too hard to live on What is this chapter? Of my life, which crumbles me, Deteriorates me into pieces And even restoring it's shape Will be hard to recognize myself. You say, it is the very end To the state of being drained Into the books, you say, Its the time I repay you all Back, oh really!! Reckoning all of this Makes me go crazy!!! Where is my life? Where can I rummage it? In that particular profession! Or in another phase of my life! Drenched in Incertitude And you say "life is how it is"? I salivate to turn it over I lust for creating my own world Where I can flaunt whole world Meeting everyone green-eyed, Just to live my world, and Bawl on top of my lungs That "life can be different" And it counts on yourself.