In the Journey of Dark Night

In the journey of dark night.. Sometimes I wanna shout.. But sometimes I wanna stay quiet.. Sometimes I wanna drink bout .. Sometimes I wanna keep loud.. Though I wanna die in his life.. Yet I wanna pardon for my right. Sometimes I wanna love him.. Sometimes I wanna leave him aside.. Sometimes I wanna lit myself up.. Sometimes I wanna burn infinite.. Though I wanna weep inside.. Yet I wanna cry out loud.. Sometimes I wanna sleep under dream light.. But I wanna open eyes to keep myself ignite.. Sometimes I wanna be in crimson bright .. But he always dresses me up in a dead white.. Sometimes I wanna see him in dark night.. Yet he takes whole time to become my sight.. Sometimes I wanna make him mine.. But he always make my wish respite..