In Memory of A

Excitement pumped throughout my palms. Sitting on the table, I waited for a sign from you. Hope lingered, If only I would have known. There was so much to look forward to In this little room. So many dreams to be had By this small little existence. Only time would tell. We held our breath To hear our future. Tears and anger followed. There was no sign. No sound. No beat. No life. I’ll never forget the defeat the denial the devastation the death. You had barely just begun. Now you will never be. I felt it was my fault. I could have done better. I could have dreamed bigger. I could have wished harder. I could have… Done nothing. Nothing. Nothing. I think about you often. What would you look like? What would you become? Do you think of me too? I’d like think we’d be friends Past the titles we were originally given, But it will never be. You left me that day. It wasn’t your fault, But I weep every year. Understanding has never come. My heart holds you still, My joy.