In It

I'm in it now What you may ask? I'm in a world of hurt In a world of masks Question their motives Answers so bleak Must stay strong willed Cannot be weak I'm in it now A dedicated place One more smile To be ripped from my face Words that are spoken Every syllable heard But actions speak louder Of things less deserved I'm in it now I've asked for this madness Within unknown territory I'm finding more sadness Confusion and wonder Wander round my head I'm walking blind Am I alive or dead? I'm in it now I don't know what to do It tears me apart I feel so confused I'm in it now I will always be last A fool to believe The future could be unlike the past