Impossible To Find

This is impossible, I swore I would never fall apart again, I said I would hold my breath, That my bottle would not explode, But it is impossible. The liquor is cheep, and tonight will be the night I will sleep, The floor lights hurt my eyes, I swore I would not live another day. It is impossible to find who I am, Who I really came from, Who really cares, Who actually truly means what they say. It is hard to say I want someone who will care, Someone to remind me what life is suppose to be about, Why I have been placed on this Earth, It is hard to say it will be all okay, Things will never be the same. I walked away and didn't tell anyone, where I went that night, I was the first to go. The last to stay. It is about time I finally realize it is impossible to find..........