Imperfectly Devoted

Each new day, my imperfections are on display, I'm not perfect, but I'm here to stay, I get jealous even after telling you that am cool with it, I preach communication but l go silent when am in pain, With depression overclouding me, Loosing several days of memories with this heart that is ten times softer than yours, I start endless fights with you because am not perfect, I make mistakes, l make errors, l flop because am not perfect, I got no smooth lines, no long texts to impress you with because am just not perfect, I can be territorial, that’s true, even jealous I guess, Bedtime anger, scars from the past, which some created fears that might never perish, I will slide in your DM, seeking connection, annoying, and boring you because am not perfect, I always leave space for the worst, expecting history to repeat itself because am just not flawless, I will questions once,twice,thrice,even ten times because once is just not enough for an overthinker person like me, Every tiniest change is big enough to make me feel less of a woman because l just need assurance, As much as l expect the worst, l expect inner-felt love, instant replies, random texts, long hugs,cuddles,night walks,open love because a little distance makes me worry too much, I would even be jealous of those who have been there before me, because am just being insecure, l wanna see your mom, your sister, your friends even your Ex’s because am just too curious to think l fit in, I cry at every tiniest argument we get into, l overthink, l become moody, l worry too much, l over-express myself, l do too much because am just not a perfect, I can be irritating sometimes, squeezing myself in your arms, sitting on your laps, sleeping ontop of you because close is never close enough for an imperfect person like me, Am so flawed, but I'll put in work for you.