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I'M Sorry

So many  times I have failed you. Its impossible for me to count.
Yet. Here you are . By my side. It is impossible for me to doubt.
That  you are just a phase.  Someone I will just erase,
  and pass by,  once a diploma hits my face.
Lets let it be known. I’m not the perfect son.
Let it be known I’m not a good brother.
Let it be known. I’m not  real Christian.
An let it be known,
 That I’ve failed as a friend and lover.
I have made many wrong turns In the road of life.  
Only  16  you think,
"At that conclusion how could he arrive?"
Some of you out there Think you know what I’m about.
I’ve showed you part of who I am .
And you have taken it as my whole.
Some of you look at me up here and think hypocrite, liar, and manipulator.
I showed you part of me and you took it as my whole.
You look at whose stands  by my side and feel anger, pity, or envy, 
Maybe think that person to you  is lucky, stupid, or a dummy.
Why cant she see passed his act? 
That’s right you think: act.
It's my fault/
I showed you part of me and you took it as my whole.
The thing that you don’t know is that I showed that person my whole.
Not the just the good and the bad.
But my whole.
I too find it hard to believe that by my side you stand,
You put up with so much ,
And in return nothing demand.
It must be hard for you to work so hard and see that at the end you get nothing not even a hand.
You do so much for me,
And yet I only choose to see,
What little I do for you.
Yet you still stand by me.
Strong by my side.
As if you know something that know one else knows.
 I am not perfect or great or good that is known,
But something about, keeps you in my zone.
That I am grateful for,
Ill never forget.
 And Some things I’ve done I'll always regret .
And hope they don’t come back and loosen the grip,
Between I and you.
 You are so beautiful inside and out.
And if I lose you, I lose me. 
And   flip inside-out.
And it seems as if I don’t care until it is all about to be over. 
You realize the only positives about me have faded into times no longer.
I’m sorry. I’ve done wrong and it’s holding me back. 
I tell God to do as he wishes as long as he don’t take you back.
You’re my second guardian angel. 
With a very human disguise
But I can see passed it whenever I look in your eyes. 
So   stay strong.  Please…For me.
I betrayed you I’m sorry  Please don’t leave my behind.
I need you. I want you. I love you. Bye.

Copyright © Raul Gonzalez | Year Posted 2005

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