I’m not Startin From The Beginnin’

The world is falling down beside me but it’s done it before so why am I so scared? I have to take meds cause all this is too hard to bare. My coping skills aren’t doing the trick. I have 100 but which one will I pick? Chorus I’m not startin from the beginning I’m startin from experience so everything will be fine. Maybe this time everything will go in a perfectly straight line. I don’t need a cookie to tell me I don’t have a fortune but the other one said I would find value in a kind word. Sometimes I wish I could just fly away like a bird. I wake up and my heart is beatin out my chest. I take my meds and try to do my best. I do my mornin routine and get ready for the day But the question is, can I keep the thoughts at bay? Am I going to remember to eat today and focus at work? Sometimes I think people think I’m just a big dork. Who cares what they think… (whisper but soon you start to believe it) I’m not startin from the beginning… I’m not startin from the beginning…