I'M a Cheater

Here another season has gone And winter is back to this town I’ve always been afraid of thunder and sparkle ‘Cause its rumbling reminds me that I'm a loner You say you’re here to watch over me That you‘ll never forsake me And if I fall you’d be there to catch me But it’s scaring me Your warmth is shattering me Why do you have to be that kind to me? Why do you have to live only for me? Why you never get furious and always forgive me? I know that you know I ain’t faithful I know that you know my heart is playful I know that you know my love was never truthful Your eyes smile when they embrace my face And my mind is thinking about all those pieces of crap I’ve been tossing behind your back But you’re always here to chuck me under the chin Are you aware? Are you an angel or maybe a saint? All these times I’ve been lying to you saying I'm heading to my household While I was sleeping with another boo All these wakeful nights you spent wide awake waiting for me to come home While I was splashing out and clubbing with the bad crew All those moments you were proudly calling me lover But to my world you were my brother All those kisses and touches you were longing for with me While I was sharing them all along that narrow alley All those late night texts and calls, the smell of cigs on my clothes You knew them all but you never told a soul Sometimes I question myself, Is this your way to strike back? Are you torturing your core because you don’t want to lose? Do you know that everything you do is leaving me ashamed? Do you know how much I’m hating myself? Today, under this cloudy sky I'm confessing all my fallacies I’ll break out my iniquitous mysteries Yes, I'm the worst girl ever existed And because you aren’t me not like the others I won’t let you abuse your purity with a player I could be anything but a human It’d sound cheesy if I avow my love to you It won’t change the fact that I'm a **** Witch like me, cannot overstep love’s zone So baby please don’t believe these stupid songs Love can’t change people if they don’t want Yes, I'm a cheater that’s why I'm leaving you now ‘Cause you deserve to live better and I deserve to cry and suffer You deserve to be loved harder and I deserve to be alone forever