If You Had Done As I Asked

I wasn’t asking for you to take control I had no one in my corner show support the asked of role as I was the performer My situation my experience a plan I created to crack on You doubted me in an instant “Ohh I wouldn’t do that one” I was asking for reassurance see my plan and encourage not tell me I’ve got no chance when I am seeking courage wasn’t asking to plan for me just tell me to keep going assume i plan hopelessly how your doubt was showing What is worse your lack of knowledge just assumed I must be wrong their friction had worn my confidence when you opposed, my will, was gone You didn’t back me up because you didn’t believe in me couldn’t watch and give feed back I didn’t want you to lead, just believe in me Disgruntled by my request for support you assumed I wanted you to take control was desperate for moral support now I didn’t want you at all So weak just go along with me but for all too much to do look at what you did to me now unsure because of you. Stand by me and see what I see, talk to me, save my sanity. Just need a voice outside my head, thoughts of someone else said. Years later I am angry still said help and you killed my will