If They Could See the Real Me

'If only they could see real me' Wide awake at 2 am What you doing on Facebook then? Try to distract from aches and pains Adrenaline rush through floppy veins Morning light comes all too soon Wish could sleep till after noon Wrecked from pain and fight to work Staying put insurance perk Some days fatigue is too much strife No energy left to win at life Too much effort to get me fed When all I want's to stay in bed Back feels broken, worn out disks Just standing, walking has its risks Light headed, dizzy, need a seat Blood pressure drops to swollen feet Commuters shuffle, busy train As fight own struggles of hectic brain If only they could see real me Inside out the pain they'd see All while my fake smile generated The real me hides not penetrated 'If only they could see real me' Victoria Payne September 2016 #chronicfatigue #chronicpain #spoonie #fatigue #sick #tired #EDS #ehlersdanlossyndrome #ehlersdanlos #POTS #Chiari #poet #poem #poetry #painpoem #hiddenpain #fakesmile #yawn #sleep #autonomicdysfunction #dysautonomia #rhymes #instapain