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If Only I Could

I can tell
when clouds start 
running through your head
your eyes veer off
into the distance
and sometimes
they tear up

It’s obvious
your worst regret
will be letting go
of your grandson’s
little hand

Everything you’ll miss
the moments
you’ll never get to share
the laughter
the proud moments
that you’ll miss
the smiles and giggles
the sloppy hugs
new grandchildren you’ll never meet

Life will go on without you
in spite of tears and sorrow
they’ll all miss you
they’ll all remember
how you’ll have given
all the love you could
and more
no doubt of that

But the hardest
will be
leaving behind
a little one
who could never understand
how a grandpa
can turn into
an angel
who’s gone
to live way up
into the sky



AP: 1st place 2020
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Mcguire Avatar
July 15, 2019 at 11:49 PM
Oh Miss Line you have captured the real sorrow of a death around a small child. It is sad. We should strive to be like a child who accepts the possibility that there is life after death and Grandpa will be waiting for us in the future. I believe it. God would have never made this grand universe from nothing just for our energies to fade to nothing when we pass.
Gauthier Avatar
July 16, 2019 at 6:29 AM
There is so much evidence that there is life after death. We are but caterpillars who can't see beyond but must have faith.
Mcferran Avatar
July 15, 2019 at 10:54 PM
This is such a deeply moving and intimate poem. The way you describe his emotion in that first stanza is so evocative and powerful. Life is hard, but leaving this life (and the ones we love best) can be an emotionally complicated process as well. Your poetry speaks volumes... my prayers are still with you and your loved ones!
Gauthier Avatar
July 16, 2019 at 6:30 AM
Thank you so much for your lovely visit and words of compassion, Rhona. Hugs.
Wolf Avatar
July 14, 2019 at 7:06 PM
Touching! --and touches all the bases as well, as life does go on even after loved ones leave, however difficult that is at first. :) gw
Gauthier Avatar
July 14, 2019 at 9:48 PM
Thanks for your much appreciated visit and comment, Gershon.
Gilmour Avatar
July 13, 2019 at 2:58 PM
Oh Line this is really such a poignant write and reminds me so much of when my dear hubby died 10 years ago, leaving us all and his two darling grandchildren, who have now grown to be 18 and 21. He has missed seeing their achievements and milestones, but maybe he can see them and is indeed watching over us all - I truly hope so. You have written a wonderful emotional poem that pulls the heartstrings and touched my soul Line. With kindest thoughts Ann xx
Gauthier Avatar
July 13, 2019 at 3:07 PM
Thank you so much for your most touching comment, Ann. We are truly kindred spirits.
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