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If Only

Class is in session
My name is called for attendance 
All of a sudden I start to slightly cry
I realize everyone's watching me
Die inside
Talking aloud my dearest friend says
Why what is the matter?
I say my mom is no longer here 
I need to be gone 
Can't finish my life without parents by my side
What should I do? 
End it with a knife? 
Start over and tell a lie?
I blame myself everyday
Fifteen years of struggle 
Now as a sixteen year old
Past-life is the monster I hide
I leave it behind as I write 
I can't let life push me by
If I let it push me along
My life wouldn't last too long
Maybe just maybe 
I can travel back in time
Change all mistakes
In a flash 
Return to a life I wish I had
Without parents is depressing
Knowing I'm loved in some sort of way
Takes my life away 
If only I can travel back in time
Just to want that happy life

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Vee Bdosa Date: 3/6/2011 4:56:00 AM 7 here is for expression of your struggle, assuming this is a true part of your life. My own poetry has little to do with my own life and struggle, but most people write what they live and feel and so this deserves a 7 and more for your youth and wisdom that really flows from the words you write in seedkin solutions. I Love this and your talent. Login to Reply

Kabuteng P.Ink K. Date: 3/6/2011 4:35:00 AM This is such a sad write-- I sure hope this isn't based on real life, but if it is, I sure hope that you find that strength among friends and other family members, Angela-- keep the faith -- nikko :) Login to Reply