If Only

If only I’d said no Just a couple of beers after work with a mate No big deal lm not staying late You’ve said that a few times but still got in a state Careful did you stumble What did you say your starting to mumble Why do you always end up like this You know she hates it when your pissed I’ve done it now Im in trouble Sod it make mine a double It’s easier to beg forgiveness than ask permission Most of my life I’ve made these stupid decisions You need one of these they said No your alright I’ll have another drink instead You should give it a go It’s well alright You know when you walk in she will start a fight More Friday night violence Followed by a weekend of silence Yeah still I don’t need a drugs to bring me cheer This makes me happy just having a beer Yeah but when your home and staggering up the hall Banging and bashing wall to wall Just do one and I bet she’ll be fine What do you mean It will bring me in line If you go home like that all your get is trouble and no chance of a cuddle I must admit it seems to explain when it’s only me like this but we’ve all drank the same I’ve done you one it’s out on the van I don’t believe it have you had one Yeh why not it’s only a bit of fun In that case maybe just one if you say it’s good Maybe I should I’m a bit scared I’ve never done this before What if it notices oh now I’m not so sure As I open the door my heart starts to race She looks straight at me right at my face Oh please god say it don’t show I wish I’d been strong I wish I’d said no Oh I think she’s going to start Wow I can hear my beating heart But wait no shouting no screaming I must be dreaming Oh how I wish I could have foreseen all the heart break pain and shame On that terrible day I found cocaine