If Only
If only I’d said no
Just a couple of beers after work with a mate
No big deal lm not staying late
You’ve said that a few times but still got in a state
Careful did you stumble
What did you say your starting to mumble
Why do you always end up like this
You know she hates it when your pissed
I’ve done it now Im in trouble
Sod it make mine a double
It’s easier to beg forgiveness than ask permission
Most of my life I’ve made these stupid decisions
You need one of these they said
No your alright I’ll have another drink instead
You should give it a go
It’s well alright
You know when you walk in she will start a fight
More Friday night violence
Followed by a weekend of silence
Yeah still I don’t need a drugs to bring me cheer
This makes me happy just having a beer
Yeah but when your home and staggering up the hall
Banging and bashing wall to wall
Just do one and I bet she’ll be fine
What do you mean It will bring me in line
If you go home like that all your get is trouble and no chance of a cuddle
I must admit it seems to explain when it’s only me like this but we’ve all drank the same
I’ve done you one it’s out on the van
I don’t believe it have you had one
Yeh why not it’s only a bit of fun
In that case maybe just one
if you say it’s good
Maybe I should
I’m a bit scared I’ve never done this before
What if it notices oh now I’m not so sure
As I open the door my heart starts to race
She looks straight at me right at my face
Oh please god say it don’t show
I wish I’d been strong I wish I’d said no
Oh I think she’s going to start
Wow I can hear my beating heart
But wait no shouting no screaming
I must be dreaming
Oh how I wish I could have foreseen all the heart break pain and shame
On that terrible day I found cocaine
Copyright © Phil Dopson | Year Posted 2020
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