If Is Not a Word

late at night i close my eyes and imagine our life all over

to start i'd erase all the times i made you cry

and then all the things i said to hurt you

i'd take back the pain and the emptiness

that i left you all alone with

for sure i'd rewind the lies and betrayel

fast forwarding through all the abuse

i'd replace the items and money i stole from you

even buy you new shoes

i'd turn your frown upside down and leave you with a permanant smile

take you out on the lake and keep you laughing

until we both fell asleep 

i'd grant your wishes to all come true despite how outregeous

and place a dollar under your pillow every time you were extra good

i'd pay attention to all your worries never saying that your stupid

i'd hold your hand and kiss your cheek and always make you feel safe

when the storm comes into town and the thunder begins to roll

i'll hide you under the covers and help you count to ten

we'd watch fireworks and hunt for easter baskets 

bake cookies for santa claus

all this and more i'd do for you if i'd had one more chance

pretend will become real and the past will never haunt us

life will leave us with inner peace

not regrets or bitterness

(if my mother was alive i know this is what she would be wishing for her and me)
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Thomer Avatar
June 25, 2009 at 11:25 AM
very powerful. sorry i haven't stopped by to read, been busy lately, but i am glad i finally took the time to click on you today, because this was truly beautiful. i know what those what if's are like, and sometimes they have more power in our minds, but it is best not to ponder upon them forever, trust me i am learning that too. much love dear <3 madison
Devonshire Avatar
June 23, 2009 at 5:17 PM
There are so many times we say, "What If?" Too bad we can't go back in time so it wouldn't be necessary to feel this way. Guess all we can do is remember how badly we feel and treat those we love better in the future. Very nice heartfelt write, Brandy! Love, Carolyn
Neshat Avatar
June 23, 2009 at 3:15 AM
such a nice poem that you write from your heart.
Higgins Avatar
June 22, 2009 at 3:28 PM
A heartfelt write my friend..I can feel the love and care in your words...you have a wonderful heart and your pen brings it all out..good work.
Williams Avatar
June 22, 2009 at 1:29 PM
Hi Brandy... its a sad thing to reflect upon missed chances and opportunities and to know another reality was always possible.... some times I think the choices we make are not choices at all, but merely impulsed reactions to situations we have no true grasp of.... the out come always unsure. Aways best then to impulse with love... great work Brandy
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