If I Said

If I said I was lonely, suicidal, depressed, Would you come to visit me Would you sit with me while I cry Or would you just ignore me Then stand by my graveside asking why? If I called out for help in the middle of the night Would you answer my call Would you persuade me not to give up the fight Or would you put your phone on silent And cry when it's just too late? I've battled my mind all my life, Behind the fake smile, the hilarious laugh. I've been the life and soul of the party While battling thoughts that I want to die. Wondering if it's really worth another try. Yet try is what I shall continue to do, I must continue to battle through every day Because I never want those I love To be standing by my graveside Wondering why? 2019 Susan Logan