If I Had the Guts

I know i have kept a lot from you. I know its not fair. I know i should tell you. I know i have to tell you. Maybe i can tell you some, but not all. Maybe i can keep it secret just a little longer. Maybe i can hide it from you more. Maybe i can get the guts to tell you everything. Everyday, i wanna tell you. Everyday, i hope i get the guts to tell you. Everyday, i feel bad for not telling you. Everyday i think about you. Sometimes, i dont want to tell you. Sometimes, i just want you to know it all. Sometimes, i wish i never knew you. Sometimes, i wish you were all mine. If i had the guts, i would tell you everything. If i had the guts, i would tell you how much you mean to me. If i had the guts, i would tell you your the only reason im alive. If i had the guts, i would tell you my biggest secret. Just knowing that i love you. Just knowing that you may or may not love me back. Just knowing that i care. Just knowing that you probably dont. Breaks my heart. Breaks my soul. Breaks my dreams. Breaks my life. If i had you, my life would be complete. If i had you, my life would be perfect. If i had you, i would be happy. If i had you, i wouldnt have to search anymore. I know i should tell you. I know its not fair. I know i have kept a lot from you. I know i should tell you. But, i dont have the guts, The guts to tell you i love you, The guts to tell you your the reason im alive, The guts to tell you, I need you in my life.