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If I were rich I wouldn't speak keep it all to myself Lost in a world where they ain't true I call it selfish Put my emotions in a book And place it all on a shelf The day finally came All the years and tears I try not to think on it I'm living my worst fear They can take her but what about me Don't I even exist He lay down and still plot Then seal it with a kiss If I had it to do again I would start from day one Give my heart to real.one Who over the years taught me to be strong Now I strive to make money and it doesn't come back Lay down with a man who with no morals Emotions He lack He lie then run to her Smile in my face Took my deepest treasure To him.i never gave Then I sit back and wonder why Replaying what did I do Why wasn't I just strong enough To keep my own and see life through If I Had the chance I would bend my knees to pray Tell God to keep me ice And take away the pain Yet I see her smile and think God had a plan Now trapped in this dishonesty All stemming from a man Another opportunity only God would know Surrounded by opportunists Who do it all for a show Love you and it ain't real The dollars was the plot If I had it to do again Give my love to her my child She's all I really l really got The choices the thoughts They plague continuously in my head If I had my way The pain wouldn't stay I would come home And hear the sweetest words Get a hug and I love you And know it's pure gold If