Idk how to say this but here it is,
Idk how to say this but here it is
I don’t want to pressure you by always complaining but I feel like I didn’t say it right last time and I didn’t explain it right so my feelings were simply brushed off and smoothed over
I feel lonely and distant from you the past month or so. Not distant as in not talking much distant as In It feels like a friendship and less romantic
No I’m not friend zoning you I just remember how I felt when you used to call me pretty and beautiful so often and how we would joke about our first kiss but now there’s none of that
We do ask each other those questions some but when I ask you questions your just scrolling or half paying attention
When I made the initiative to ask about hanging out I felt annoying and like a bother due to your lack of interest in spending time together
I know it’s your choice but when you said you didn’t feel like going to church camp it hurt because I would jump at the opportunity to spend even just an hour with you
I’m sorry for dumping all my feelings in your like this and maybe I’m a stubborn overthinker but I’ve been thinking over this a lot. I have cried many nights because I’m scared to lose what’s left of your affection and I have this weight in my chest that was supposed to be lifted by loving you but not the burden is from being scared that you don’t care anymore. When we first started dating and texting I saw the world through gold colored lenses for the first time in a long time but now I see everything in greige again
I thought your love would feel like relief and it did for awhile but now the love itself is confused with the unresiding fear of losing it.
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