I Won'T Let My Guard Down This Time

I shut down
I'm broken down
But, I will rise
You'll soon realize
With your starlit eyes
That I am not afraid anymore

I won't let my guard
Like I did before
I know life can get hard
My wings will soar

We are shimmering bright like pretty stars
Will someone come here and heal my scars?
Neon lights burn in our eyes all over again
Frozen in place and I'm frustrated and then…
You tell me to be brave and embrace the light
When my hopes are in the grave tonight…tonight…
I spiral mad like a spinning top on the table of horrid lies
I am sad because I let my guard down when we said our goodbyes
When we said our goodbyes…when we said our goodbyes…
I let my guard down and I am so ashamed and bemused
I let my guard down and I am shattered and I was abused 
Heal my hurt right now
Uplift my guard somehow

I am consumed
By shadows of assumption
But, I was bruised
By the woods of corruption
You’re my remedy and sweet gravity
You give me strength to fight off vanity

I won't let my guard
Like I did before
I know life can get hard
My wings will soar

We are shimmering bright like pretty stars
Will someone come here and heal my scars?
Neon lights burn in our eyes all over again
Frozen in place and I'm frustrated and then…
You tell me to be brave and embrace the light
When my hopes are in the grave tonight…tonight…
I spiral mad like a spinning top on the table of horrid lies
I am sad because I let my guard down when we said our goodbyes
When we said our goodbyes…when we said our goodbyes…
I let my guard down and I am so ashamed and bemused
I let my guard down and I am shattered and I was abused 
Heal my hurt right now
Uplift my guard somehow

Steal my pain away
Make my clouds less gray
Make me happy once more
Don't let me let my guard down this time
Don't let me give up on myself this time
I lit up the night and I begin to soar
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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March 17, 2020 at 1:37 PM
Hello J. W. Earnings, you are in a lot of pain. Why did you say good bye? Is there a chance to make up and begin again.? Only time will tell. I hope it goes well for you. have a nice day my friend. Be well..
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