I Wish You Knew

This is the tragedy Of how I lost it all. It happened the night I denied your call. I was dazed, I was drunken I heard the barman’s voice. I then blindly decided You were my second choice. I was completely unprepared For the news I received. “Not my love, it’s a lie” As I broke down and heaved. If only I answered If only I heard. You’d be my first choice, Not my second nor third. Though a little too late I’ve learned my lesson, I’ll think not even once About ignoring my blessing. I should’ve done this A long time ago. I know it’s too late But I thought you should know: I’m sorry I wasn’t better, Sorry I wasn’t the same. I’m sorry I can’t take back The fool that I became. I’m sorry I couldn’t express Just how I really felt, And I wish that you knew You’re the reason I knelt. Every morning when I woke, Every night while you slept. You might not have noticed, But my promise I had kept. I prayed for forgiveness I prayed for advice. I prayed for myself But I prayed for you twice. If only you knew You’re the reason I’m living. You’ve filled me with hope But I’ll never be forgiving. I wish I could change Your heartbreaking fate. Twelve months sober But twelve months too late. I wish that you knew I’m still in love with your ghost, And I’m sorry I wasn’t there When you needed me most.