I Wish To Begin Again

As I sat on the bed reliving the moments we once shared. It's a shame we can't look at them in the same light anymore. Or I can't speak to you with our eyes locked, with our breaths close, anymore. For these bring shade to my field of lilies. If it's truly easy as I heard- Start fresh the moments your eyelids pop. I wouldn't be here, still puzzled, mindlessly hoping, secretly praying I didn't have to go through these. If I can leave the days behind, slam the door on my tear-soaked eyes; smile like a proud best man, one who genuinely cheers for you, one who knows all limits' length, one who scores in his own games. I would be happier. Happier. His mind crystal clear. For he only sees himself and not others. In another show, he begins again.