Johneta Ohler Poet Free verse

I Was Finally Okay

I was finally okay.
Not in some dramatic, movie-ending way
but in the quiet way.
The way my chest didn’t feel so tight.
The way my mornings didn’t start with your name.

I was getting used to being me again.

I started laughing without checking
if it would’ve made you laugh too.
I stopped replaying old conversations
like they were prayers
I could rewrite into something softer.

I was healing.
Slowly.
Honestly.

And then you appeared.

Not with love.
Not with apologies.
Not with anything that belonged to the past.

Just…
a question.
a favor.
a need.

Like I was a door you could still knock on
just because you remembered the address.

And suddenly,
it felt like the ground moved.

Two steps forward
and somehow
three steps back,
not because I wanted you,
but because you reminded my mind
how easily it can reopen a chapter
I fought so hard to close.

I don’t want you back.
I want my peace back.
I want the version of me
who wasn’t scanning every notification
like it might be another disruption.

I want to stop thinking of you
like an unfinished sentence.

You don’t get to keep returning
just to take something
and leave me with the echoes.

I was doing so well.
And now I’m stuck
not in love,
but in the aftermath.

Trying to remember
how to feel normal again
after you reminded me
you still exist.

♡Like0

Share Poem

---

Post Comments

Poetrysoup is an environment of encouragement and growth so only provide specific positive comments that indicate what you appreciate about the poem. Negative comments will result your account being banned.

Please Login to post a comment